Today’s paper was crazy insane! So many questions, so little time. The lecturers cheated my feelings. The past year paper had an hour long duration, but this morning we only had 50 minutes! And not only did I have to shorten my answers (due to the lack of time), I didn’t even have time to complete my political/legal environment analysis! And I had to write, “There should be a demand for this venture as there is no law against it.” Gosh, what happened to Fair Trade Agreement and CASE, ada!
Anyway, enough of test rants.
I went shopping at Expo with Hui Wen at the Robinson’s Sale today. And I spent some 100 bucks there! Gah. I bought a NUM tank top that said, “I love Jesus and rock ‘n’ roll” (at half price), a pair of lime green Dupe flip-flops (AT ONLY 10 BUCKS!), 2 bags (at only $19.90), some ZA cosmetics, and lingerie. Hahahaha. The end result is? SHIOK!
Then I went to attend midweek service with the CG. We got to sit in the Rock Auditorium, courtesy of the awesome ushers at the Level 6 overflow room. I love Pastor Zhenya. He is soooooo funny! So much feeding tonight, praise God.
So we came home, and I went online. And this pang of i-don’t-know-what just hit me.
Sigh.
Kenneth was just telling me about emptying my heart out, about voicing these things I feel. But to who? Who else but Jesus? There is no one else. I know the time isn’t now. The season hasn’t come. “I must get out of this,” I hear myself say. But Jesus just soothes me and coos, “Don’t need to try, Princess. Let Me. Let Me love you. Because I want to.“
If this is one way to fall more and more in love with Jesus as He takes this burden away, I’ll stick around for a while. His love will overwhelm me, anyway.
