Footprints In The Sand…

There are times when I really love my BF as much as I love Daddy.

You’re like the rainbow after the rain. The music to my ears. The lullaby that soothes me to sleep. The comforting warmth of a fireplace. The fuzzy hug of a teddy bear. The sun that never ceases to shine. The love that never goes away.

It’s really comforting to have someone to just rant to on such an evil day. Even if he’s miles away. The day when all good things seem to stop coming at you for what seems like so, so long.

First, it was school shit. I don’t wanna go into the details; it’s not as if I’m not trying. Although trying isn’t enough, I guess I’m honest to say that I am still doing.

Work kinda built on the &%$(*^$#@!*& in me too. You know, normally, when I go to work, I bring the mentality of getting things done well because I am paid to do the job. I don’t go there to think that I’ll have fun chatting around and take the easy way out by taking advantage of my very young and awesome manager. I’m sorry to say but I don’t take sides with people who can’t reason with sound minds. BF said I was a bit too harsh and a little too nosey; but just watching them slack was a total eyesore.

To think the one I do enjoy hanging out with at work has to misjudge me and think of me in a totally opposite way. She’s probably real mad at me, but I don’t blame her. Maybe she’ll even bear a grudge. But I’m still going to explain things to her when I find the opportunity to. Not to cover up for guilt – there isn’t even any to begin with – but make her see things in a whole new light.

I honestly don’t give a damn about what people think; but of all people, this girl can’t misunderstand me. If you care for someone, you want what’s best for her. And if people in the shop has certain prejudices against her, something is wrong somewhere. Maybe it’s not about her, maybe it’s something else. But I can’t take this hostility lying down.

I’m sorry, Joan. It’s not what you think it is, really. I just felt that at that point, you could’ve handled things more maturely. All the older ones want to coach the younger ones well; but sometimes, it’s the way they carry themselves that put people off.

Sigh.

Though I can’t really be bothered with what people say or think about me. Those who have eyes shall see, and those with ears shall hear. They will discern (with their own wisdom) to know who is right and who is wrong. I don’t need people to tell me whether I’m right or wrong, or whether I’ve done something good or bad. In Christ, I am perfectly righteous and it shall be so.

And just as BF serenaded the chorus to this song to me earlier; when I felt like sometimes, the world just couldn’t stop crashing down, when I got so tired of all things worldly, and simply yearned for some peace in the Lord.. I hope you’ll enjoy it too.

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand where I’m going
You walked with me when I was all alone
With so much I know along the way
Then I heard you say
I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you when you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand
I see my life flash across the sky
So many times have I been so afraid
And just when I have thought I’ve lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That’s when I heard you say
I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you when you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand
When I’m weary
Well I know you’ll be there
And I can feel you when you say
I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I’ll carry you when you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

BF. You’re the greatest, greatest miracle that has happened to me in my life. Why, oh, why , then.. do I adore you so, so much? Thanks for always being ever understanding and comforting.

I learnt something new again today.

Delight yourself in the Lord. But not only, delight yourself in those around you who love you. And that delight will overwrite all sadness and despair.

I never fail to remind myself of how loved I am – by God, by my family, by BF, and my beloved CG – in spite of all the difficult times in need.

Because I see… All their footprints in the sand. Along with mine.